witty-remark's Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- -
I am neither depressed nor remotely suicidal. I am reasonably content. And yet, like a marble statue with moss winding down its cracks, I find Death nestled in my edifices. Splitting apart my seams and digging into my fissures. I fixate on its presence, like a cold blade resting against my neck, so frequently that I�ve invited its own familiarity into my life. It�s no longer unusual to have my first and last thoughts of the day be Death. In whatever form it transpires, I welcome it. It�s a curiosity quivering to reach the surface but blanketed by a sheet of mental boundaries. The way blood swells and ebbs to the skin but never breaks it. It becomes a bruise. And every morning I wake to trace the edges of that tender mark as I press down against it once more. 8:25 a.m. - Wednesday, Jan. 22, 2009 |
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